Now here we are, 14 days into deployment and I feel like I have yet to earn my paycheck. It isn't any fault of my own or anyone else's for that matter, rather it is because we are in a transition phase and there is little I can actually do. I was told today something that I already knew, and had little problem with. It came up as I was walking here to go online and talk with Sarah. My commander stopped me midway and told me we needed to chat. He had talked with some of the personnel I work with, and their consensus was that I am "too soft." I'd be the last person to argue against this, I am a "soft" individual, but mainly out of a caution to serve Christ through everything I do think and say. I am also a thinker and analyze everything before I actually want to give feedback. I was challenged though, to be more assertive and throw out some profanity here and there. My question to myself is how in the world would Christ handle this circumstance. Looking at the life Christ lead, I imagine he wasn't a very soft individual, he was very assertive in his speech, and spoke with authority. So how do I do that having lived my whole life with the personality that I have. Can I just up and change this? This indeed will be a challenge that I will rise up to and face. No longer am I going to hold back, but with prayer and devotion I will speak my heart and mind. My Thinking is that if I continue to grow closer to God, I won't have to worry about holding back my thoughts because I will continually become more like minded with Christ.